i believed today is a terrible day for my sisters and anthony .
and yupps anthony i will fuck off from chong en's blog don worry .
and from today onwards everything you need help approach others .
i'm not gonna interfere with any matters related to montfortians .
i apologised once again .
especially emily ah ma i'm really sorry for you T.T
haiis .
and yeahhs the blur princess here forgot to bring her flexicurve again ._."
i will never forget liaos !
hsueh lao shi sick luhhs T.T
no lessons today again T.T
and we emo-ed in the library today .
emo ..
and emo T.T
and that's the emo lil princess T.T
all of us were very high initially .
but then cause of the mr koh ._."
then we all sat theree emo-ing luhhs .
sians luhhs .
and literature i slept for the whole lesson ._."
mood got affected luhhs .
after that design and technology lesson .
sians lahhs i hate it alot luhhs .
not subject but the teacher in charge .
see here's wad happened .
as we've missed 8 periods of D & T for the past weeks , so now there's no theory lessons ._."
and then we went straight to the D & T room .
we sat down in the front row .
and some girls sat behind .
that ap teacher called them to settle in front .
she said , " how many times must i remind you to sit in front ? "
then at that juncture of time i was thinking of my didi's spelling .
he got ten and then i said , " ten . "
then guess wad she said .
" huiboon can you don be a busybody and keep your mouth shut !? "
then i was like traumatised .
i replied , " i'm talking to myself . "
she claimed in an angry voice , " if you want to talk to yourself can you dont let me hear it !? "
whathe .
whats the problem with you uhhs ?
puabye uhhs ?
as if i asked her to hear ?
she can cover her ear what why ask me not to let her hear them .
its my mouth and i'm not refering to her also ._."
wahhs just being paranoid and here you're scolding me .
look whose talking luhhs .
haiis and i was being nonchalant then .
wasnt really fustrated with wad she said .
cause i've already get used to her scolding and everything .
she's just paranoid and ap so why should i care ?
lmao luhhs ._."
and yupps we continued with our cutting and everything :D
was really excited cause i've spent my time doing them over the past few days .
helping joanne also :D
and its like i went to work with my daddie and completed them .
from early to night luhhs :D
its tiring but fun though [:
so i just need to bent and buffer that's all .
but know what ap teacher said ?
" i know this was done by some other people cause in our D & T workshop there's no such equips that can cut like that . "
yeahhs its true cause our school wasnt professional at all ._."
its call whitley luhhs please not rgs luhhs ._."
but please i sacrificed my time from early morning to night doing all those stuffs ?
and i got humiliation .
she said " further more this is also not a design . "
look whose talking uhhs !
i was really pissed off liaos .
feeling like crying but was controling .
and she drew for me waves and asked me to cut them up ._."
and its like whathefuck is her brain made up of !?
my theme is about sea !?
NOOOO ! and why you drew waves !?
wahhs pek cek .
and so i cut lohhs .
i feel so devastated .
i ruined my design .
i knew there's no turning back for me .
cause for me once its cut wrongly the whole thingy will be destroyed .
and so i kept them properly .
and told myself no matter wad i must show it to her and make sure my master piece will be outstanding then wad she said .
not design uhhs ?
everything made out IS a design !
so i took the remaining piece of emily's and remake my middle part ._."
its gonna be the same design i make on my ruined piece .
no matter wad you say i wont change it .
you may think i'm stubborn but if you see for yourself its really nice .
cute right the bear ?
but idk will she accept anot .
i took one whole day to cut this .
i almost cut my hand also .
the one i ruined .
i'm really ..
i just don believe because of ms ng i spoilt my work .
i just feel as if i'm a failure .
alright nevermind .
i went to help others around .
especially ziyi darling .
she's scared luhhs .
but she make me feel better .
thanks worhhs darling .
and then poor emily was weak in D & T and she asked me to help her out .
i brought back her middle part .
i promise i will help you cut dehhs emily [:
and then that time theres one part idk how to cut .
i asked her to approach ap teacher but she say ms ng said that she don wan to help her ._."
so i approached ms ng for her .
she diao me !
knn wads the problem lahhs .
heck care so much she helped can luhhs .
and she went to cut for her .
and after that i asked emily if it was done and she showed me .
yea it was cut properly .
then after a thirty min i went to have a chat with emily .
she asked me to help her again .
i told her to ask ms ng .
she said don wan and say ms ng told her to do herself .
so emily said she wanted to approach mr low for help .
but ms ng told her if she asked mr low to help her she'll give her zero straight away .
i didnt know that its wrong to ask for help .
and its like emily really donno how use lahhs ?
she tried luhhs not that she didnt touch the machine .
and please ziyi darling never touch okays ?
why don scold ziyi but emily ?
she's struggling and look what did she get !?
and somemore ms ng told her must as well ask the teacher do everything ._."
i really got nothing to say .
and ziyi darling no offence i was just explaining T.T
its really unreasonable .
i comforted her abit siding with her .
and then dismissal time .
packed up and listen to ms ng's crap .
before that i asked her , " can i do everything at my dad's factory using the equips which is not available in our workshop ? "
she said in a way like she doesnt care , " cannot its not fair to others . "
i replied , " i ask my dad's boss or dad to write a letter to you . "
she claimed , " how i know that its true ? if your parents or dad's boss side with you ? "
i said , " i'll ask them to write their contact number or you follow me to the factory . "
i've already asked her to follow to the factory with me but still " cannot . "
and she said , " unless you take videos lohhs . "
i was like since you want prove no problem .
no matter what i want to prove to her .
so i said , " ok lohhs . "
and then she crap agn and dismissed .
and nika was like asking something .
and emily say , " hhaiya you everything also help nika lahhs never help me . "
and she replied in an angry voice , " emily ! i didnt help you ahhs !? "
she said , " she A1 student mahhs must as well help her everything lahhs ! "
then ms ng shouted angrily , " emily don throw your tandrum here ahhs ! "
wahhs sian really pek cek .
emily's just stating the fact !
and poor emily walked out of D & T neglecting joanne and me .
i felt so useless and devastated .
sorry emily i never speak up for you .
and ms ng asked us to leave the room .
and so winnie and me went for our class .
on the way met joanne and nika .
and nika was like trying to be kind and sound like she care for emily .
ohcrap .
i didnt know wad to do .
at that moment i was beginning to hate nika .
so wads she's clever .
is life really that unfair ?
is it really so painful ?
is it true that teachers are bias over those students who scored well in their exams ?
ohgod .
its not that we didnt want to score well .
its just that we're born to be stupid than nika okays !
so wad can we do ?
struggle so hard and seeking for help but yet this is wad we get !
arghhs i'm really tired .
some of you may not know why i quitted being a prefect .
i know i'm foolish but because of a conflict between ms ng and me when we're sec one .
i accidentally left my science book under the desk and went home .
at that particular day gina left them under her desk also .
next day we realised that she confiscated them .
so we went to staff room looking for her trying to get back .
and ohcrap .
she said , " as a prefect , both of you should be role models to others and not making mistakes ! "
i was like hurt by her words then .
i said in an unstable voice , " you mean prefects cannot make mistakes lahhs ! "
she said angrily , " i don like your attitude uhhs ! "
i was like uhhs !?
we just make mistakes for one particular day .
bernice left her books under her table for donno how many times and she didnt scold her !
and ..
it just pierced thru' my heart .
and i cried infront of her .
joanne , nika and gina shocked .
joanne comforted me but still ..
its really terrible , i ran out of the room crying .
and they followed .
i said i wanted to quit being a prefect and all of them was like persuading me not to .
i didnt care so much and i took my tie and ran down to assembly area .
and i told jolynn , the assistant head prefect cause she's close to me .
i said , " jolynn .. "
she saw me crying she's shocked and hugged me and brought me to the back .
asked me why i cried .
i told her everything and she said she don let me quit cause i'm a good prefect .
and alot of seniors told me they have the same experience too .
and still the teachers return will return back their books one day .
and gina cried .
i was lyk ..
and jolynn comforted me and hugged me .
that day i didnt do duty cause jolynn excused me .
i told ms low i wanted to quit and she asked why but i didnt reply .
she asked me to think carefully and write a letter if i really want to .
went back home and told me marmmie .
she's like pissed off also intending to call the principal .
but phew she didnt and she wrote a letter .
and i passed it to ms low .
and the seniors said its a pity .
haiis .
and joanne quitted also [:
haiis sians too tired to continue .
i'm sorry emily but i'll make sure ms ng pay back for everything she did .
i swear to god i'll get back on her one day .
i'm sorry .
god will watch and bless over us .
don worry i believe there's a miracles for us .
for our future .
theres someone whose willingly to give us a helping hand .
its god .
lets believe in him [:
dear father , i hope you can hear what i'm praying now .
thanks for blessing me all along .
but i hope you can bless and watch over my friends .
hope they'll stay cheerful and of cause help us in the state we are .
we're all struggling suffering pain .
dear father , i hope you can hide us behind the cross .
jesus name i pray , amen .
emily i hope monday we'll laugh together again .
YLet's partehhs